We’d wear t-shirts with our urls on it.
And we could party together.
Acknowledge it’s there and there could be severe repercussions, and if you don’t the same thing becomes a problem… I don’t know what I’m going to so…I cannot tell if these feelings were here when we became close friends or if they are new…I can’t tell if I’m even allowed to have them. Is it appropriate? I need him in my life and I keep treading carefully in fear of losing him or his friendship…can we even go back to being friends? Ugh the conflicts… I wish it was easier. I just don’t know what to do right now. I haven’t felt this way since high school. And the best part is I know that a semblance of what I’m feeling is mutual which if you know me is a change of pace (Aka Keith)…my friends are all telling me to fall…but something is holding me back and for once it is for all the right reasons…I can’t lose him. Especially If it were my fault…
This is what I’ve been struggling with…it’s difficult to let yourself be happy when you are so used to being hurt…
As most of you know I spend most of my time stressing. And despite how absolutely erratic and panicked I get there are a few people that remain by my side and help me get through it all.
So Friday I go out to a hookah bar…yes lizzy I was smoking that shyt lolz…and I met up with an old friend Christopher. He was my basketball manager in highschool, prom date, and best friend. Due to various circumstances and petty behavior we had a falling out; however, after all these years we both admitted to our past mistakes and are moving forward with a new friendship.
Saturday, I woke up early and headed off to the Georgia State game at the Dome. Which was the biggest disappointment if there ever was one. Old Dominion RAPED us. Our true freshman quarterback our coach saw fit to play, threw 5 picks!!! I’m getting angry again just remembering the ordeal. I did have a blast because my best girlfriend and Ace, Sarah Nagendran, was there. This has been my best friend since the Spice Girls. Once we left the game we headed off to her house to go and be awesome for a few hours with her family. Her mother cooked a wonderful fried chicken meal which was all from scratch and absolutely HEAVENLY. *Mouth Waters*
Saturday Night, my girl Sarah and I hit up Loca Luna. That shyt was sooo much fun. My bestie really knows how to pick the best clubs. We love to go to latin clubs because the dancing is much more fun and it’s more sensual and sweaty lol. Yup I said it.
Sunday morning I got picked up by Gabriel and we spent the day together. Had an awesome lunch at Folks (Chicken Livers ON DECK) and then we went to see Columbiana. Which was the sexiest movie ever. Things transpired and then Monday morning Gabriel took me to court. Which is STILL going on sadly. After court we got some Willy’s and headed back to my place where we did some hw.
I am a very lucky girl to have a best friend like Christian or Sarah. And even a bestfriend and man like Gabriel. I don’t know how I’d make it through everything I go through without them. This bloggity is dedicated to those people. Thank you for an awesomely epic weekend.
I am not the person who controls this blog because, that individual stayed logged in on my PC. However, being the kind hearted person I am, I will not post any derogatory messages, photos and the like…
aside from this one
and this one…
DIS BITCH RIGHT CHEERREE made it to class on time and awesome today. Apparently all it takes is a complete lack of sleep the night before…which does suck. This whole weekend was amazing and I really don’t have the means to describe it fully. For the first time in a long, long time (maybe back in the Vincent days) i felt a genuine connection with a man. It felt amazing, and for that all the shytty stuff i’ve been dealing with just doesn’t seem that bad anymore. Which is quite a relief honestly. I don’t know if I deserve all the good feelings; however, i’ll leave that up to him. For once I’m along for the ride. Thanking God because he finally gave me something steady and positive that outshines everything else.
NOW? I am sitting in the student center listening to music loud AF with my beatz and chillin like a villan waiting for this italian class. Later I’m supposed to get a “surprise” visit which will ROCK :) YAY LIFE RIGHT NOW!
Lots to do, and it is my relaxation day! grawr. Well I finished with textbook stuffs so I can just pick em up from school tomorrow…right now I’m chillin like a villan until later. Might be going to the High Museum which will be amazing. Feelin bad for my friend though, he had a rough day and I don’t really know how to make him feel better.
On a funny note, whilst out with @sweetsexydesi my wifey we met a newer teacher at SHS, that nigga smexi. It’s good to not be a student anymore. It was also just nice to see Sarah. I missed her SOOOO much. I got to give her her bday presents which were nice, and we went ahead and made plans to see eachother for the GSTATE game saturday. Hopefully I can find tickets that’ll work. HOPEFULLY
I’m happy…YAY Life…
Things did work out… go figure
hmmm on a funny note tomorrow is prom night…i’ll write another post to let you guys in on that one…i’m like oh em gee…i’m like sooo nervous…
i’ve also become obsessed with Barney from How I met your mother…
YAY BARNACLE!!! aka SWARLEY!!!